THE MODERN WARRIOR | ADDICTIONS
There is a particular kind of frustration that comes from repeatedly trying to change the same behavior. You decide you are finished with pornography and masturbation. You make the decision seriously. You may even go several days or weeks feeling completely in control. Then something happens. You have a stressful day, you are bored, you are alone, you are lying awake at night with your phone, or you simply fall back into a familiar routine. The urge appears, and before long you are doing the same thing you promised yourself you had stopped doing.
Afterward comes the disappointment. You wonder why you keep returning to something you genuinely wanted to leave behind. You promise yourself that this was the last time. Then the cycle starts again.
